My Immortal..... Apt!

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
You still have all of me, me, me

LOVE OF MY LIFE

I LOVE THIS GUY.

LIKE IT'S NOT EVEN A JOKE.

OSEKHALUIME <3 <3 <3

2016

I realized the year is almost over.
This has been the toughest year in my life and I sincerely wish it to be my last.
I dont think I've chalenged the existence of God so much in my life than this year, However for every challenge in my heart, there has been a double dose of renewal of faith and spirit.
Even in the heartbreak, there's a warped sense of hope.

2016, what a cruel year.
if my life was a Bible, 2016 will be the book of lamentations, sigh

so 2017, i pray you make me shed tears of joy, I hope you give me pains in my belly from so much laughter, I pray i struggle to catch a breath from seeing the wonderment of God in my life.

Alheri passed on 10th Sept 2016, she was a lovely person. barely knew her 6-9 months and she managed to steer a great feeling of relation towards her. Sudden death!

When i think about my situation, I wonder if death is not a better option. I strongly beleive this is the devil trying to plant seeds in my head.

Where I am isnt terrible, in fact I know many people would fast 40days and nights to be in this same ship I fantasize on jumping everyday, I think it has more to do with the way it happened.

Rant over
Marry F, Love E. SMH I dont blame the devil with his attempts, the situation is very bad.

I will continue to look up in the hills.

I have been so tired this year, yet everyday i wake up and face another day

God is forever good

okay for real
Rant over

here's to hoping this time next year I'll come back to this post and laugh my head off at how worried I was and How God came through


sigh

bye

fry

cry

sly

okbye

What a time to be tested

fighting a heartbreak....... check
side business closed down.... check
potential epic brokeness..... check
continuous wedding plans despite several attempts to stop it..... check
younger cousin bashing your car and rendering you immobile.... check
huge emotional and psychological deficiency.... check

can i get a break Lord?
Thank you

Dear God

Dear God,
I dont know how much more I can take.
Maybe this is a good time to let me know your plans
or something

i am honestly worn out.

I have lost every single thing i considered a purpose.

I just pray for a stable mind and anything to ease this pain

I think I hate my mum right now, I dont know if I can ever forgive her or even forgive myself.

God please remove all resentments I have for everyone and create in me a clean heart..

Stereo Rotation: Times of our lives

Other half

....sigh


the ying to my yang, the richest, my pastor, my partner in crime, my gist partner

one of those nights, almost every night now

heavy heart

sad nights

I miss you terribly, so so terribly.

No wonder there are so many songs about love

The emotion can kill

May God help me